Hello, my name is paper and I am a piece of paper.
My purpose is to have people write on me and to be printed by printers.
I like the smell of wood because it smells like my parents.
My ambition is to be thrown away and recycled.
(lmao i don't know what to put in here, so thanks Claire for the message.)
i made him angry on sat cos i was insecure.
he really couldnt stand me making all these "comparing" comments when i compare myself standard of beauty with other girls. he brands all these as insecurity.
i was jolted out of my insecurity when he commented angrily:-
"i dont want you to change. i like you as you are. i dont want you to adopt another girl's style, because i want jane to be my girlfriend, not jane-mimicks-whoever as a girlfriend."
"you are you. to me you are perfect. you are 100/100. why change? if you have full marks all you have to do is maintain. any changes will only make you lose points."
"..but im just trying to make you happy by giving u what u like. im just trying my best to be a good girlfriend. so when u compliment the girl on her whatever asset i know u like it so i want to please you by having it too.." i protested.
"make me happy? but have you ever asked me what i wanted? i want you. just becos i said i like her whatever asset doesnt mean i dont like yours. there are so many pretty girls in singapore, why did i choose you as my girlfriend?"
"because you rank above them. have you ever wondered why you are my first girlfriend? why dont i just anyhow get a girl? why? cos you are the combination of all that i want. so why compare? everyone is unique, you will only lower yourself by comparing."
i've definately got to remember all that and remind myself whenever i catch him looking at a pretty girl.
God.. help me to resist these comments.. i've asked him to give me warnings too whenever i start to dwindle into this topic, but i need your help.
sweet tidings for the night. just went for dinner with his family at a jap restaurant at tanglin mall. $456 for 5 pax. a whopping $91 per person. amen to God, i thank you for all your blessings.